Society today

Who’s to say what’s normal?  Magazines? TV? Everyone is different. Not everyone can be a size 2. Every single magazine out there has something that says “lose weight with this new diet” or “I lost 10 pounds in 5 days”. Lots of people out there claim to have the secret for weight loss and there’s always ads for liposuction and breast implants or tummy tucks and nose jobs. Everyone wants to be a better looking person, everyone wants something they can’t have naturally. I myself have considered getting a few things done but luckily married a man who hates fake things on a person. It’s hard to walk down the street and hold my head high knowing that everyone who is a size 2 looks at someone like me in disgust. I’m a plus size 18, have been for awhile. I used to be a size 24 and over 300 pounds. I’ve been fighting with myself for years about weight loss. Everyday I go to work, I look at the girls there and become filled with envy. A friend of mine can’t seem to gain weight and says she’s too skinny. If only that would be the case for me…I look at food and gain 5 pounds.

I read gossip columns about celebs everyday and they always comment on how fat they look after gaining 5 or 10 pounds. It’s rare that you see overweight actors/actresses in the industry and when you do they always make comments about it. And they always make a big deal about someone who’s had something done….oh, ashley tisdale had a nose job, pam anderson got bigger boobs (again), britney spears gets lipo injections yada yada yada. Give it a rest already. There’s so many overweight teens out there commiting suicide because of society looking down on them. Kids bullying the “fat” kids and their parents not doing anything about it because they don’t see a problem. My neice is overweight for her age and she’s bugged all the time. Breaks my heart that she can’t make any friends. My family has always been big, whether it’s a bit extra on the tummy or all over, it’s just in our genes. I can work my ass off to lose weight but I just manage to keep putting it back on…no matter what I eat. I can go on the atkins diet, eat salads all day long, drink slim fast, walk 3 miles everyday and I’ll still put weight on. It’s not muscle either.

I pray for the day that all this will change. I’ll wake up and be 100 pounds lighter. We’ve got an exercise machine in our room that is very neglected but will be used again very soon. As stated in previous blogs I want to quit smoking and gain control of my life. Even if I do exercise each day and not lose weight, I’ll at least be getting in shape.


2 Comments »

  1. pluckymama Said:

    You don’t have to subscribe to societies ideas of what beauty is. It’s a terrible idea. I think health is beautiful. Someone can be really skinny and not healthy. If you’re taking care of your body, nourishing it, and giving it proper exercise then you’re doing a great job…no matter the outcome. Atkins is very unhealthy BTW. :)

    I’d always be happy to help you with ideas for food and stuff…I’m not a professional yet but it’s my dream job for sure. It’s hard to put the info to use though…I’m even having trouble doing it too.

  2. Michelle Said:

    I recently read The Fat Girl Manifesto. It’s teen fiction, but focuses a lot on the issues you raise in your post. It’s empowering to read about a teenage girl comfortable in her own body, one that is determined to change people’s perceptions about body image… and she’s funny too.


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