This is my first blog. hmmmmm Hi?
I’ve been told that I need a new blog (thanks) so here I am almost completely wordless. Last night I started Jacob on his journey to sleeping on his own. My heart will be broken for a long time. He had his bath at 8 like usual and his cuddle with Daddy after his diaper and pj’s, can’t forget his milk in Mommy’s arms. Then it was off to the crib, I hate that look of fear in his eyes when I lay him down, it burns itself into my retina’s and remains there until he’s alseep. He cried and cried and screamed and hyperventalated. I caved after 10 minutes, went in and hugged him. Poor kid, he wanted me so bad. I laid down on the bed we have in there and just stayed there until the crying stopped. Poor little man, it’s my fault. He’s so used to falling asleep in my arms and I took it away from him. I should have done this before. Jeff could barely stand hearing his little boy cry so hard. Oh, it breaks my heart. This morning he woke up around 6am and started to whine, so I had no choice but to turn off the baby monitor. If I would have went in there, he’d cry even more and probably would have never gotten back to sleep. I know this sounds mean but it’s a good thing for him. I hope tonight goes just as well as last night did. Naptime is in 2 hours and I know it’s going to be hard as well. I’m hoping that in a week he’ll be fine with going to sleep on his own. My parents are coming to visit and I know my Dad will cave and go in to see Jacob. I’ve got to stop that from happening, even if I tell my Dad not to go in there, he will. He’s such a suck when it comes to babies, especially ones he’s related to. We’ll see how things go. Let the countdown begin.
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